Doctor positive with COVID-19 pens heartbreaking post: 'Hindi pa ako handang mamatay'

MANILA, Philippines – A doctor who is positive for coronavirus disease (COVID-19) penned an emotional message sharing how she fears for her life.
Dr. Grace Caras-Torres admitted she is positive for coronavirus

Dr. Grace Caras-Torres admitted she is positive for coronavirus
Dr. Grace Caras-Torres admitted she is positive for coronavirus | Photo Courtesy: Facebook/Dr. Grace Caras-Torres

On Facebook, Dr. Grace Caras-Torres, an active consultant at St. Luke's Medical Center, admitted that she was PH194. She also opened up about her fears and struggles as a brave frontliner in the country's fight against coronavirus disease.

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Dr. Grace shared, "Ako si #PH194. Mabuti nang sakin nyo direktang malaman, kesa sa tsismis. Hindi ko akalaing tatamaan ako agad. Nagsisimula pa lang ang gyera nun, casualty na ako."

When she first had fevers, she didn't think it was coronavirus and brushed it off for another disease.

"Akala ko chikungunya lang. High grade fevers na paulit- ulit. Kakaibang sakit ng ulo at katawan. Hindi makakain. Saka lang nag-sink in sakin na posibleng Covid nga ito nung malaman kong may symptoms din yung kasama kong mag-opera ilang araw nang nakalipas," Dra. Grace said.

When the unfortunate reality began to sink in, she started fearing for her life and her 4-year-old child and parents.

"Diyos ko po, una kong naisip ang pamilya ko: ang anak kong 4yo, ang parents kong seniors. Inexpose ko sila, ang iyak ko noon. Di bale nang ako, wag lang sila. Nagkulong na ako sa kwarto," she continued.

The doctor said she spent her birthday while on quarantine and started thinking about her life. She said, " Nag-birthday akong nakaquarantine at may sakit na nakamamatay. Buti pala umabot pa ako ng 42."

It pained her to see her other colleagues are on intubation while four others already passed away. Dra. Grace said she felt she was already on her way to recovery but suddenly she had diarrhea.

"Sabi sa Wuhan, pag nagkaroon ng GI symptoms, tuluy-tuloy nang pumapangit ang kundisyon. Ngayon lang ako natakot. Napaiyak ako. Hindi pa ako handang mamatay," Dra. Grace pleaded.

The brave doctor suddenly thought of all the possibilities she has set for herself in her lifetime. " Kelangan pa ko ng anak ko. Sasabak pa ko sa gyera."

Just like the rest of the world, Dra Grace hopes the crisis would soon end. She said she missed her child and is thankful for all those who helped her.

"Sana matapos na ito. Sana gumaling na kami. Sana wala nang mamatay. Miss na miss ko na ang anak ko. Ngunit salamat pa din sa lahat ng taong tumulong at nangamusta," Dra. Grace said.

— Sally, The Summit Express



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  1. Get well soon po mam.sana po gumaling n po kau doc..at lahat ng kababayan nating sana gumaling n din po..in the name of jesus

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  2. doctora kmi man din po ay ganun din ang nasa isip ng work parin pero d nko umuuwi sa bahay takot sko mahawaan magulng ko na mga senior at mga bata sa bahay..magiging ok din ito ..mag dasal ka doctora..accept JESUS CHRIST as your personal savior..basa ka ng bible..

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  3. we are praying for you Dra.
    read your Bible in Psalms 91 the whole chaper. declare it in your life. In Jesus Name

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